In my more formative, younger years I strived to be debt free for the sole purpose of freeing up cash to sponsor a child for camp or mission trips or being able for me and my family to travel for mission trips. Never, never has that desire left. But the more I dug to be debt free the more my unhealthy relationship with money fought back. Two cracks of my core now working against each other.
When you have an unhealthy relationship with money – and for me it was the fear that it was never going to be there – you find ways to build the security in your finances. Did you see the most pivotal word that is bound to work against your efforts… “YOU/ME”. *I* was trying to find ways to build that security. Of course it was destined to fail.
But this I also know... just like every other person has this thing or that weakness that is there to keep them running back to the Lord, so I know that is money for me. It's a daily struggle to embrace my "thorn" and see it for the good purpose it serves. But at least it's not my struggle alone.
I was recently blessed to read the book "Radical" by David Platt. Having been a Christian for what seemed my entire life it was the first time in a long time that some of my long standing ideologies had been debunked... and I was EXCITED!!!! It was the first time in a long time that I saw Scripture come to life for ME. How can that not be the most exciting thing ever?!?!?!?
What sealed the deal for me was when two more worlds collided. My desire to give and go and the safe and secure way I was going to do that. I've spent years trying to create the perfect, comfortable circumstance to give and to go. When the whole time the Lord was simply saying two words... Give. Go.
So we are... stay tuned to learn where we are going. Don't worry... I'm getting to The Point. Just stay with me.
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