You don't have to be a rocket scientist to see that I've packed on some weight in rapid fashion over the last 6 months. I've heard the comments and seen the bewildered, pitiful side looks and heard the sighs of relief "thank goodness that's not me!". But that's okay, because my journey to be HEALTHY (and stop striving to be THIN), is just that... MY journey. Thanks to Go Kaleo for delivering the science, the psychology and the counseling behind being a better me - not only physically, but mentally as well. Let me emphasize that NOTHING about this journey has been easy. Swimming upstream in a society saturated with very strong, shallow opinions about your external appearance is exhausting - until it's not. Then it's awesome. I'm somewhere in-between right now.
Remember my post several months ago "Mirror, Mirror on the Wall"? The hubby is still loving the plan. Yep, I've got a keeper. And I'm proud to say he feels the same way. :)
The mental battle is still there. When you've been living in a world that tells you everything you're doing is wrong and that only thin people have the "good life" then it takes a while to overcome that toxic mentality. But you say, "People really don't think that."...oooohhhh, but they do. And so begins my early morning Word.
In typical fashion, I began my early hour social media perusal to distract from my "heartburn" (OH. My heart's burning all right!). In doing so, I came across an article talking about how a TV exec "advised" her on air talent that her appearance was "less than pleasing". Anyway, the story goes on to say how the on air talent (in fear of losing her job) went on to lose 70 lbs in rapid fashion (refer to Go Kaleo about the detrimental affects from doing that). Articles like that can be frustrating, but it's the readers comments that can either boost or burn your opinion of the human race. In this particular incident, it totally burned. But God redeemed. No damage done.
(background story) I will be out of a job come 12/31/13. I've put on 25 lbs in 6.5 months. Knowing what I know about this society and their judgmental viewpoints on people's size I have found myself to be a little concerned about any upcoming job interviews. And, as if to hit that point home, I come across this little gem of a comment from the aforementioned article:
In all honesty, as I read the comment I kept waiting for the punchline or side comment of sarcasm... that never came. This person is serious. And there was my fear put in to an actual (albeit stupid) thought.
Now, I will refrain from the soapbox of how sad, pitiful and WRONG this statement is and continue on as to why I'm up at this early hour. By the way, am I the only who giggled a little at the "being thin means never getting cancer or a cold"? What the WHAT???
I can happily say that I did not dwell on the fact that my fear had manifested to actual posted words and immediately told myself "Oh no... my Lord goes before me. All of me. ALL additional 25 lbs of me. He can turn the sea in to dry land and already has a perfect plan mapped out." So speaking of "God's sake" silly poster person... I'm already living it.
After backing away from this toxic mess, I picked up the book The Unquenchable Worshipper, by Matt Redmen. Ahhhh.... a refreshing word.
Wait.
What?
A whole chapter on contentment and what that means to our worship. So beautiful. So true.
Next... Jesus Calling. Oh snap... I forgot to read Saturday's entry. Let's do that. I will spare you my gushing over the journal entry (it's awesome! Especially for a future unemployed person) and proceed directly to the scripture. Okay... you ready...
Luke 12:22-23 - Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore, I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes."
Word.
Isn't the Lord fun? He's so funny.
I got it. Peace out.
Can I go back to bed now?
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