Find Your Voice

I've been so inspired to write lately. I have so many "draft" posts waiting in the wings. Waiting until they're fine tuned and I've mentally prepared myself to expose my heart. 
I tend to shy away from sharing thoughts out of fear or rejection. But then I'm reminded that if I'm going through something, then chances are, someone else is too and they could, perhaps, benefit from reading words from a kindred spirit. 

Much of my inspiration lately has been from a devotional book that a friend encouraged me to get, "Streams in the Desert". When I knew I was going to be unemployed I filled my agenda with all these grandiose plans to purge and clean my house, to workout, dinner on the table every night, etc. But as Scripture is apt to tell us... "You can make many plans, but the Lord's purpose will prevail." And I've come to realize that in this time of waiting He has called me closer and closer in to communion with Him. 

Admittedly, it was frustrating at first. I wanted that clean house, I wanted to be managing our finances to the bare minimum, I wanted to be more useful in my home and community. But I stopped wrestling and realized this quiet time with Him was/IS far more important than any of that. And thus the writing ensued thanks to the struggle and the quiet times and the thought provoking introspection. 

You have to know that any time music is used to make a point, it resonates more profoundly with my soul. So in the midst of finding my voice I read these words. 

"Facing obstacles should make us sing. The wind finds its voice not when rushing across an open sea but when it is hindered by the outstretched limbs of a pine tree or broken by the strings of an aeolian wind harp. Only then does the harp have songs of power and beauty. Send your soul, which has been set free, sweeping across the obstacles of life. Send it through the relentless forests of pain and against even the smallest hindrances and worries of life, and it too will find a voice with which to sing."

I've been saying for months that "there is something big on the horizon". It's like knowing you're going on a dream vacation, only you don't know where or when that dream vacation is going to be. If ever there was a time when it was so profoundly obvious that there is a divine appointment for this season of waiting, of wondering, of waiting some more, of struggling, it is now.